Adolescent Dominion

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Standing by your side,
A shining star by the sun.
But, nobody sees.
So, I dream with open eyes
The day you plummet to Hell.

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Here's what's going on.
In a way, I'm kinda glad that I didn't take Linear Algebra this semester because people who are currently enrolled into the course complain about how horrible the prof is.

But I don't think I'm out of the hot water yet. Molecular Cell, I've heard, can be a pain. Especially when the readings needed to be done is plain old INTENSE!! Homework problem sets, absolutely terrible in the sense that it's difficult. It's not just whether or not you know the facts, it's about how well you can use the facts to apply to a problem >_<
Even if you THINK you have the answer, the other part of you just simply don't know if you're right. It's the same problem I've had with Physics. I don't know how to apply.
I'm currently studying with a good friend of mine. So, hopefully that'll ease things up a bit. A bit... The fact that the TA today told us that even by knowing the stuffs in the books and the lecture, we'd only be able to get 30% of the exam right, it's not really helping. Last year, the average is a 60% (ugh...). Can I really make it to the top? I hope I will. I seriously do because I can't afford to lower my gpa.

Orgo lab, it's got tedious stuff to do, just like any other lab, but it seems fine for now. It's not TOO bad, so I'm not that worried about it. Come to think of it, I also have work to do in the mornings. Mmm... well, it's not like I'll be doing anything productive during those hours I picked, ah wells. I'm sure I don't need to worry too much about that.

This semester, I also decided to take two humanity courses. I specifically checked out that they're not writing intensive. I think next time the campus should specify whether or not the class actually HAS essay to do. Papers always take up so much of my time, it's not even fun anymore. Especially when you don't know what your prof expects of you :( Both of these classes are interesting, but what really annoys me is the fact that I have papers to worry about, and LOADS of readings to do to be prepared for those classes. I've already spent 2 consecutive, nearly-sleepless nights on these classes because of the readings, while I SERIOUSLY need to worry about Molecular Cell because I REALLY should devote most of my time understanding Mole/Cell. (God, where's David!? I need closure...)

*sigh* Worse off, during these hours, I really don't feel like working on anything because I am goddamn tired. At least my alertness is slowly returning. Maybe I should go shower shortly after. Sometimes, when I am by myself, though, I can't help but get distracted by so many things, and one of them is especially annoying because it's been eating at the back of my head for the last 5-6 months!!

Okay, so here's the plan for me. Starting tomorrow morning (EARLY tomorrow morning), I'm going to do organic chemistry stuff for 3 hours, then the rest of the time, I'll devote them to Molecular Cell's homework, and then later on the readings for my other two classes. I need to think of a paper topic to work on at some point SOON, too, because my papers apparently, requires outside readings >_<

I need a cloning machine.

It was a hard choice to make... I mean, the last question, it was either choosing a giant hovering tower or a giant arena and call myself the warlord. :/

On one hand, I'd probably prefer the hovering tower more because... well, I can STILL make a dueling arena on the top of the tower :p And a rose garden, and giant red convertibles that burst out of the arena whenever I feel like it like the giant phallus they are.
It's all good. Hm, in any case, I'd probably be "Red" since I'm still aiming for an arena even if I do plan to make a tower. And, I like to act on impulse in the name of fun. But, still, blue is pretty.

Technically, Blue would be what I would most likely do if I actually use my brain, but that is too boring (And, well, I'm pretty boring most of the time). Red would be what I ALWAYS want to do. Like eating a stick of butter :p I still didn't regret doing that :lol:

-Immortal Emperor of the Mundane Universe

Sure, I can write whatever's from my head right now because well, last night = intense. But, it'd be nice to be able if I don't have a writer's block for my fic T_T

Trust me. I'm crying inside because of this <_<

Last night, though, was a bit unprepared when friend suddenly invited me to eat out. We were supposed to go to Fogo de Chao, but then we changed our minds and decided to go to Chili's, THEN we changed our minds and decided to go to the Cheesecake Factory in Galleria. Something about saving the money to buy an X-Box 360 for Le Host.

Cheesecake Factory wasn't half bad if I could still stomach in one of their cheese cakes. Ah well, at least I had Garlic Noodle and ate two sticks of butter raw. Been on my list for a loooong time, so when someone betted one of us to eat it, it's my opportunity to take at least one stick and shove it down my throat without freaking out anyone... much. Man, I still got at least five things left to do before I die. *sigh*

One hour after I got back, though, I got violently ill. Well, at first, it's just the shoulder joints were EXTREMELY painful. The moment I lie down, I. CAN'T. BREATHE. It's a terribly horrifying feeling that I wished I never had to experience again, but it's happened the second time. So it's inflammation, and probably autoimmune disease passed down from my dad because he's got pain like those before <_<

I put on 4 patches on my shoulder, and it burned like fire, and it did NOT help O_O. I had to sleep sitting up so I won't DIE from suffocation. Before I knew it, I was sick. I wonder if the patches had anything to do with that. Ah well, I felt a lot better in the afternoon. Nothing too serious, and my arms can move now, seeing that I can type :p

I think I know what may have contributed to the shoulder pain last night, though... During the car ride to and back from the Cheesecake Factory, convos with friends = maniacal laughter = lots of pounding and clawing on my part because it was an uncontrolled laughter. While that's fun and good to have once in a while, it's creepy when you can't stop laughing even if you want to when you're completely out of breath :O

Tomorrow, friend going away to college. Don't need to see him off since I already sort of did last night. Plus, it's not the last time I'll see him, so it's all good.

Now back to my horrible writer's block for my fanfic.

-The Immortal Emperor of the Mundane Universe

PS: The ulcers in my mouth are not going away. Here's to hoping that they make like a tree and leave by next week.

PPS: Watched Brokeback Mountain today in the afternoon. I admit, the idea is fresh since Hollywood barely touched on the concept of homosexuality, but I'm sorry, I've seen better romance -_- I'm being harsh, but I have.

You scored as Mermaid, Mermaid: Mermaids are also known as Sirens. These creatures were beautiful women who tricked sailors into becoming completely entranced by their haunting voices and found death soon after. Not all stories of Mermaids are about gentle loving sea people. They are mystical, magical, and extremely dangerous. They have a way about them that brings anyone they are around to seem enchanted. They are very mysterious creatures and to meet one... Would mean certain Death. Let the song of the Sea fill your soul, for you are a Mermaid.

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~What colour is your heart?~
You scored as a Yellow
Your heart is yellow. You are very fun loving and you're the life and soul of the party. Some people may call you childish, but they're boring fuckers and should be shot! Be happy to be happy and don't change for anyone. Oh wow, I'm very proud of you *sniffles*. This is my first quiz so bite me...



You scored as a Blue
Your heart is blue. You are a very calm and relaxed person. You are very caring and like helping others. You're grateful for what you have in life, even if it's not perfect. People love you for who you are, don't ever change that- it's what makes you the great person that you are.

I haven't swam for a loong while, come to think of it. But then this means I'm aligned with the Age of the Pisces!! :D
Hm, I'll come to appreciate the Age of Aquarius when it arrives 30-40 years later. Some people said it's already taken its effect upon the society.
As for the color of my heart? Yeah, it's predominantly true, but I'm definitely not the life and soul of the party because I've been to parties, and all I've done is sitting at the corner listening to loud music. That and I can't dance <_< Since the quiz results say that I'm 71% Yellow AND 71% Blue, I thought I might take the liberty of posting both. I think it defines me a little bit better that way, since I AM more of an ambi-vert than just an extrovert or just an introvert. Anyhoo, I'm still feeling kinda sick. Two people just died from heat stroke, or so FOX news reported. There could be more, I'm not surprised. My sneezing is getting worse recently. It's not consistent, but once it starts, it keeps going like a snowball. Each one worse than the next. Not to mention I still have three oral ulcers. Must be under too much stress. In any case, visiting friend today, so things should be better. -Immortal Emperor of the Mundane Universe

First of all, I'd like to say...

DAMNYOUHUMIDITYANDHEATICANTFUCKINGBREATHEFORTHEWHOLEFUCKINGWEEKGAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Now that's out of the way, my other complaint is the fact that I haven't actually met with any of my friends yet.
The cleaning process for the upcoming big moving is also getting progressively slower :/ Mainly because I like to take naps, and I really hate cleaning up because I am very allergic to dusts. But, there really isn't anyone else who can do that, and I can't let my sister do all the work 'cause what would that say about me <_<

But, at least I have a couple of good news, I'm definitely going to watch the Simpsons Movie with wunderbar friends of mine at some point this weekend. People said it's worth watching, especially when there's a... spoiler... thing that makes me want to watch it even more. See, spoiler doesn't really get to me, it has an opposite effect for some reason, so I could never understand the big deal with spoiling plots -_-

But I understand, some people like to experience the experience themselves. It's like riding a roller coaster while sawing off the head of the person sitting in front of you while eating a piece of cookie dough while making out with your girlfriend all at the same time. Ah, the thrills of committing 3 sins all at a single roller coaster. I love how I can think of stuff like this sometimes while completely disregarding how many people are going to barf after reading this entry :p

Back to the main subject, another good news is financial aid office is paying me, wooray! If I DO take work-study, it'll be another 20000 off the 50000 debt, plus the private loan I borrowed, which is another 20000 off. That means it's 5000 per semester for the time being.

I can live with that.

Finally get my hands on writing fanfictions, btw. The hardest part IS setting up the characters for me, at this point. I just finished chapter 1, but it's a very short chapter, and the plot is moving very slowly because it turns out I don't really write anything until 12 to 3 AM. I'll try to improve on that.

In my dead time when I don't feel like cleaning up the house, naturally, I surf online mindlessly, but because Windstream is currently facing some technical difficulties, connection seems Pret. Ty. Difficult.

So, in an internet-free environment, to prevent myself from suffering from the usual withdrawal symptoms should I not be able to do anything fun with computers, I play video games, AT LONG LAST!!! Fire Emblem, Golden Sun, Daddy misses you!! I decided to play hard mode. Turns out I only have the brains to pass one level per day. Ah well, I'm slaughtering soldiers in red, so if I can win each level without any casualty, I'm happy.

Here's to hoping for a much more fulfilling August in the future. Kanpai (Cheers)!! *clink*

-The Immortal Emperor in a Mundane Universe


PS: I'm still not looking forward to the moving because it's going to be horrible experience. I know it. I have fights with my dad all the time when we move furnitures. Uuugh!! *crosses fingers for a miracle*

And then I'm gonna be heading to the airport.

Mixed feelings, dammit! Knowing that I'll have to go back to Baltimore by driving from Houston makes me feel sick. Sicker than having to sit between two morbidly obese people on a plane for nearly 3 hours and 45 minutes!

Well, what makes me cringe the most is the fact that I'll have to help packing stuff to furnish my sister's apartment (BLAGH!) At least it's only one room per day, so it shouldn't be too rigorous of a work. Let's see, there're 10 rooms, so I'll be done at around August 10th or 11th if successful :)
That leaves me with about... 6, 7 days all for myself... Yes... Myyyyyy precioussssss...

*ahem* In any case, (I really love saying In Any Case for some reason) I'm more than ready to leave... starting... later <_< I hate moving, I hate moving, I hate moving. But, can't wait to shoot craps in Ikaruga and kill goblins in Neverwinter Nights II, so that's a plus :D Well, I don't really hate moving, but it's just that both my parents are old, and my sister doesn't want to contribute much to the liftings, so it's practically gonna be all me. SON. OF. A. BITCH!!!! If only I can find friends to help :/ Never before have I looked forward to going back to school. Completely different mood today as opposed to... approximately 7-8 hours ago??? Ah, well, 10 years from now, I bet I'll be looking back on this and laugh. I'll be anticipating that. :D -Immortal Emperor of the Mundane Universe

Going back home, it's not going to be all fun and games for the next month of August. The days with the most intense heat of the sun are also the days with the most intense work I may ever have to do this year (minus the schoolings this fall :/) because I need to help certain someone to move stuff, pack stuff, and shit like that...

We also have to paint the house, room by room, and so on. At times like this, I really wish we can hire someone. Or something like that. Or at least be able to invite people I know to come over to paint houses with me... I don't think I'd like my friends to go through that :/ It COULD be fun, but I think we're better off spending times playing Ikaruga than starting a paint-ball fight in the middle of everything. (Now that I think of it, that wouldn't be a bad idea, either... Too bad I don't technically own the house, my parents do)

Note to self, when I own my own apartment/house, and I need to repaint the place, I'll invite friends over for paint-ball fight :D

Double-Note to self, get a wet-suit

As for the summarization of my last two months of summer, here's what happens...

1. Orgo, fine, B+ and A, couldn't ask for better now, can I :) I really think I have a knack at chemistry-related stuff... Let's see if I'm actually good at bio-related stuff, too, this fall :D

2. Got into two new anime, Rozen Maiden and Kaibutsu Oujo. Rozen Maiden, seriously reminds me of Revolutionary Girl Utena where the main characters would fight to "death" to become THE perfect creation. And, the constant motif of an angel breaking out of an eggshell in the anime feels so Hessian. I love it! As for Kaibutsu Oujo, I watch it because of the Cthulu reference :D And, I want to see something morbidly funny like the Addam's Family, another plus!

3. Got a new set of soundtrack composed by one of my favorite artist, J.A. Seazer. His musical back in the 1970's meshing with the experimental rock style that made Utena the masterpiece today is provocative and addicting... To those who are wondering, the musical soundtrack that I got is called Jashumon, or in a rough translation... "Gate to the Evil Faith"? Lots of wailing and insane laughs of crazy mothers and Oedipal boys = me likey :p

4. Got into 3 webcomics which I REALLY like. Least I Could Do, Looking For Group, and CONvicts. First one, I love because it's out of the world, but feels real! Which is why I joined the "Least I Could Do" Forum. Still a newbie there, but is slowly learning his way to be a... lesser newbie. Looking For Group, drawn by the same artist who did Least I Could Do, also pretty nice comic depicting a typical band of RPG characters. Makes me REALLY want to play Warcraft, and maybe check out a couple fantasy novels to read besides LOTR and Chronicles of Narnia. CONvicts, THIS I can relate to the MOST because it's all about anime/comic obsessed Otaku!! Check them out when you have time. I'm positive it's worth your minutes.

5. Nothing too big, just found out that I can still sing like a girl. Oh the wonders of pranks I can still perform... I'm thinking of humiliating guys into thinking that I'm actually a girl by dressing up like a lolita during Halloween parties :p I am so evil... I wish there's a "devil" emoticon somewhere in LiveJournal

6. Got tons of Rozen Maiden wallpaper that I like. It's less intense than Utena's wallpaper. Granted, Utena's more gorgeous, but I need less suffocating images to look at for now.

7. Got started and is going to spend the spare times of the month getting back on my novel. Technically, it's a fanfiction since I'm writing my own continuation of the Fire Emblem game after being influenced by so many things I've watched or read. Took me a while to organize the characters by playing out the scenes on the street (people sometimes stare at me because I talk to myself :p), but I think it'll work out. And, if goes as predicted, I'll be writing an original fiction, or at least I'd try. Actually, come to think of it... I should read Salvatore's fantasy novels (Recommended by the author of Least I Could Do and Looking for Group, as well as New York)

8. Got to meet with really good friends in Baltimore before leaving for Texas for the month. Spending those 5 hours in the library really takes me back to those days when we'd spend many near-sleepless nights as studious coffee drinkers :D Best of luck for your Gen. Chem stuff, Patricia! I know you'll work hard on Wednesday, so bite down so that you can truly enjoy the rest of your summer days :) PS: That chem lab looks like a bitch, hope you can do well.
And then there's David, kinda slow as always (I know you're reading this, Divvy), but makes one hell of an omelette... I kinda regretted asking for a bagel, though, Should've just taken the egg alone since the bagel was kinda hard to bite into. But, hey! Got to spend time and shop at Target and some other unknown shoe/outdoor place with Divvy and Judy. That would've been more fun if we were doing that in Day time. Night time strolling should be for Inner Harbor instead. Yeah, I think that's how it should work. Towson for Daytime, Inner Harbor for Nighttime :D

The 8 things I intend to accomplish this summer besides moving the furniture (I really wish I don't have to move the couch or the tv all the way to Baltimore, or I'll shoot someone right now)

I'm so not ready for school to start again :/

-The Immortal Emperor of the Mundane Universe

Falling to the ground and bleed, yet still standing,
Walk away, far from here, as if nothing happened.
Even though life does not always end so quietly,
Sometimes wishing for a paved road might not be so bad.

As of now, the sky has been so much clearer to me.
The hues and the shadings phasing with each other.
Although everyone deserves the small drops of kindness,
I can't finish The Puzzle due to the overdose.

We always asked each other the irrelevant questions,
So, don't ask why I would hide, don't ask why I move away.
You've never wanted to see, when I stopped trying to hide.
There is nothing I can do if no one can find my hands.

Perhaps no one understands how much I have despised it.
That is why they're desperate for the shadows of the flame.
But, do you not understand why I cannot hold a smile?
I would rather you hate me, than to hear 'I am sorry'.

Within the fleeting flicker, before drawing the last breath,
I now embrace those curses, plunging deep, 'till raining red.
No matter the morning's night, no matter the obscured light.
Please do bravely gaze into what's hidden by endlessness.

-Immortal Emperor of the Mundane Universe

Not those, not with those,
Those trembling fingers, the hesitation
The peck, one-two-three
Why must love be so short-sighted for you?
With the subtlety
Caressed as if in the mother’s embrace,
Are you so willing to
Light your first passion for me?

Encased within the “Bara Ottismistica”
Shut away from the rage out the window,
As a chrysalis, illusion of death,
I will live on.
The scents of Versailles, oh, pleasant suffocation,
The Brair Princess, I now in her arms
Piercing through my eyes, I now bleed, yet
I wept in joy

Under the string-hung diamonds,
Riding the ornate Carousel,
Whenever will I deliver
That Destined Kiss?

Swear now, won’t you swear
Pierce us both with your Eternity
Love has always been
None but a despicable, burdensome Blessing
With the viciousness
Torn as if inside the torrents of million wails
Are you so willing to
Pluck that flower beneath?

How the time pass before the capricious Aeonus
Bathe within the glory of your Crowns.

-Immortal Emperor of the Mundane Universe